state of myself address
here i am, flanked by my cats on either side of me. I live in san francisco, I have food in my stomach, clean water, access public transportation and healthcare, clean air. I have a family, no partner, no play in my life right now, some sexual tensions and hopes that remain unfulfilled. I am deeply thankful that I am not in prison, that I dont have cancer or HIV, that I have housing and good food (thanks to EBT) as well as all the aforementioned things (minus the lack of sex and play but I am working on that). still I am frustrated at finding a job, navigating the world as an adult. I skipped essentially two years of education due to working my ass off and being smart, but bachelors degrees seem to be rather worthless in the current job market. I want to do something I care about, that I can feel ethically positive about, and I dont want to have to compromise myself in order to pay my rent. I fucking hate capitalism. most people when they are my age are still in college or have already been working since they finished high school or in some trade related program. I cant even get a fucking tax refund since all the work I did 2011 was under the table, stipend or required no W2 form. I am fucking sick of being poor and literally not going places cos I cant afford the transit to get there. I hate writing these cover letters talking about how awesome I am and then not getting called by places I want to work. sorry for the rant yall… things I have needed to get off my chest.